A couple of days ago, I was going to write a very moany post about how miserable I was feeling, but I didn't because I was feeling too miserable. I am now feeling better.
I don't know why, really, because the same circumstances still hold:
*I didn't get that job (unless a miracle occurs);
*I've put applications in for others, but I suspect I'm not going to get them, because I don't really have enough experience;
*my foot still hurts (see below);
*J is still off work, for complex reasons involving getting clearance to go back from his doctor and various official people at his work;
*I feel like I've spent too much money on things to cheer myself up recently;
*there are a whole lot of books I'd like to buy, and things I'd like to do to the house, but I feel I've spent too much money recently...
But still, I do feel better, so why poke at it?
Maybe it's because we've lately been doing various DIY jobs around the house; painting walls, putting up shelves. It is amazing the mental boost you can get just from putting up a little hook to hang keys on. J thinks I'm easily pleased in this respect, but what's wrong with being easily pleased? Doesn't that mean you spend more time happy than people that are difficult to please?
On the other hand (or foot), my foot still hurts. Not agonizingly, but it's rather hard to ignore when it's your foot: it aches, it hurts when I run, and I'm restricted to wearing my bigger clumpier shoes. (Fortunately, I have plenty of those.) Looking back, I seem to have bashed it on Monday 3 September, so that's nearly a month... so perhaps I should show it to someone. I don't really know who to take it to, though. I suspect my GP would say I just have to wait for it to feel better. And there's nothing to see any more, except a slightly bruised-looking toenail, and even that's looking a lot better now.
But I kind of need it to get better, because I want to enter the Great Winter Run again, and I can't train for it with a non-working foot.
And then in spring I want to do the Great Edinburgh Run, which is a 10K and the height of my distance-running ambitions. I think it would take me about an hour, and I would definitely get bored running for longer than that. I wouldn't say I'm easily bored, but that's because under normal circumstances I have a book on me at all times, so if my brain is unoccupied, I'm probably reading. But even I can't read and run simultaneously.
I want some new trainers, but I don't think I should buy any until my foot is fixed. Or maybe until I get a job. Or something. Something needs to happen, anyway.