Monday, October 01, 2007

Downs and ups

A couple of days ago, I was going to write a very moany post about how miserable I was feeling, but I didn't because I was feeling too miserable. I am now feeling better.

I don't know why, really, because the same circumstances still hold:

*I didn't get that job (unless a miracle occurs);

*I've put applications in for others, but I suspect I'm not going to get them, because I don't really have enough experience;

*my foot still hurts (see below);

*J is still off work, for complex reasons involving getting clearance to go back from his doctor and various official people at his work;

*I feel like I've spent too much money on things to cheer myself up recently;

*there are a whole lot of books I'd like to buy, and things I'd like to do to the house, but I feel I've spent too much money recently...

But still, I do feel better, so why poke at it?

Maybe it's because we've lately been doing various DIY jobs around the house; painting walls, putting up shelves. It is amazing the mental boost you can get just from putting up a little hook to hang keys on. J thinks I'm easily pleased in this respect, but what's wrong with being easily pleased? Doesn't that mean you spend more time happy than people that are difficult to please?

On the other hand (or foot), my foot still hurts. Not agonizingly, but it's rather hard to ignore when it's your foot: it aches, it hurts when I run, and I'm restricted to wearing my bigger clumpier shoes. (Fortunately, I have plenty of those.) Looking back, I seem to have bashed it on Monday 3 September, so that's nearly a month... so perhaps I should show it to someone. I don't really know who to take it to, though. I suspect my GP would say I just have to wait for it to feel better. And there's nothing to see any more, except a slightly bruised-looking toenail, and even that's looking a lot better now.

But I kind of need it to get better, because I want to enter the Great Winter Run again, and I can't train for it with a non-working foot.

And then in spring I want to do the Great Edinburgh Run, which is a 10K and the height of my distance-running ambitions. I think it would take me about an hour, and I would definitely get bored running for longer than that. I wouldn't say I'm easily bored, but that's because under normal circumstances I have a book on me at all times, so if my brain is unoccupied, I'm probably reading. But even I can't read and run simultaneously.

I want some new trainers, but I don't think I should buy any until my foot is fixed. Or maybe until I get a job. Or something. Something needs to happen, anyway.


Shauna said...

i reckon you have the right idea being easily pleased! that way you're not so easily disappointed! there is something nice about having a proper place for things, too.

Hope things pick up soon. and take care of that foot x

PastaQueen said...

Foot pain sucks! I want bionic limbs or an adamantium skeleton or something. Hope yours starts feeling better!

Isabelle said...

I didn't know your foot was still sore. Alas. Glad you're feeling otherwise better, and yes, being easily pleased is definitely a good thing. Things will pick up. It would just be nice if they would get a move on. Love you lots!

Loth said...

I am inordinately pleased because I spent Sunday tidying and re-organising my office's stationery cupboard - how's that for easily pleased? I get a glow of satisfaction just opening the door and peeking in now! Sorry about the foot - might be best to get it checked out? And I just registered yesterday for the Great Edinburgh Run next year (or Great Edinburgh Public Humiliation of Death as I tend to call it). Never run more than 5k before. I might regret this!........
(Second Born son is doing the Mini Edinburgh Run the day before too!)

BethK said...

Sorry to hear about the job and the foot.

Never having been the sole of patience myself, I hear you on the needing to "wait for it to feel better." After the 3-Day it took weeks for my left foot to recover and it was crazy-making. Is it improving, albeit, very slowly? I suppose if it is getting better then there's not much the doc can do except tell you to wait it out. If the improvement has stalled, then it might be worth while going in and having it checked out.

Things you could try: 400mg of ibuprofen every 4 hours to relieve the inflammation (not to mention the pain) and twice daily epsom salt soaks.