Sunday, June 10, 2007

Good news, bad news

Good: J went to work for some of last week, and seems to be feeling better.

But that’s still only four days he’s been feeling better. Fingers crossed.

We are going away for a short break for a few days later this week.

Bad: I feel fat. The holiday will involve wearing a swimsuit.

I have decided to buy a bathroom scale, so that if I am actually getting fatter, I can find out and take decisive action (though not before I go on holiday).

Bad: I have not actually bought one, or taken any action other than looking at pictures online and saying to J, “Look! The ones with body fat monitors aren’t that expensive.” J (if he has a fault, it’s a certain unwillingness to spend money) makes non-committal noises.

Good: I’ve nearly made up my mind that I’m going to do this 10K.

Bad: But I haven’t actually been running AT ALL this week. Or any other activity which involves moving faster than a walk.

I ate fewer biscuits and less cake this week than I did the week before.

Bad: You don’t want to know about the week before.

And so it goes on.

If you have seen my motivation, could you tell me where I left it?

I can make excuses for myself. I have been busy, and work has been rather full-on lately, and there’s been stress about J. It’s too easy. None of those things is really to blame. I’m not unhappy; I just seem to have fallen back into a mindset I thought I’d left behind a long time ago. It goes “Nothing I do will make that much difference and I can’t be bothered right now.”

However. My plan is that the holiday’s going to get me back on track. This is not going to be a sitting-down-reading holiday. There will be some of that (I’ve got five new books! Five) but there’s also going to be tennis, badminton, swimming at least once a day, and – I hope – country dancing. I know it’s supposed to take 28 days to make a habit, but how about four to reset the system and remind me that I actually like exercise?


Molly said...

Thank you for your encouragement and sympathy. I really needed some right when you posted. :)
As for the motivation, have you checked under your pillow? That's usually where I leave mine. ;)
In seriousness, though, I recommend hula hooping. I read somewhere that you can burn up to 100 calories in 10 minutes, and even if that's an exaggeration I can't think of a funner way to exercise.

Isabelle said...

Hope that motivation has returned, and if it has, could you lend me some?

Rosemary Grace said...

And what are you doing up and commenting at midnight young lady? I see you on BFD!

*waggles finger* Go to bed. Enjoy the super long days this week, I miss the looooong evenings at Midsummer. The sun still sets here at about 7.50pm.